GiGi is my french maid alter ego, named by Aaron.
From time to time, I get these intense feelings of servitude and I want to do stuff for people. I'll clean whatever someone wants cleaned, take them wherever. Anything, really.
The other day, I got sick of looking at my disgusting bathroom and bleached the entire thing, but I didn't want to get it on my clothes, so I did it all in my skivvies.
(I still ended up getting bleach on my shirt somehow.)
After that, I was down to do anything. I even posted crap on facebook about it. I wanted to clean someone's house, apartment, car, garage.. anything! I didn't have any takers. :( Nobody loves GiGi.
I'm super weird lately, I don't know why. I keep having these extreme feelings for things and then playing all kinds of scenarios in my mind and freaking myself out. I have some kind of complex when it comes to people using me (yet I totally love to be used?) and I always seem to think everyone I know only associates with me for that reason.
It keeps getting brought to my attention that I complain a lot. I know I do. I'm sorry. I'm still working on this small talk thing, and I still fail at it. I feel I have nothing interesting to add to a conversation unless I'm complaining about something or talking about someone, neither of which are a good thing.
✔ Working on it!
I've been stressing a lot about my living situation. I can't afford my dorm next semester, and I know moving back home will be a health risk. Both Daniel and Kayla offered to let me move in with them (& pay rent obviously), and I realllly want to. I ran this idea past my sister and all hell broke loose.
"It's a bad decision. You're going to spend everything to have to live on a couch? They aren't a very good friend if that's all you get."
It's not even like that. I love being out on my own, even though I'll soon be facing the harsh reality when my check stops coming in every week and I'm back where I was last spring: putting in application after application and never getting a call back.
I'm such a pessimist lately. I had a streak of optimism somewhere, and sadly that faded fast. :(
Hopefully I can just finish this semester on a positive note and not fail anything, then maybe everything will fall how it's supposed to. :\ I don't know.
Side note: My parents found my kitty! :D They thought something happened to her, because they hadn't seen her in 3 days. Yay. n___n
#lies. I told you tha we could rearrange my room so you could put a bed in there. Brooke should get her facts straight before she starts bashing me.
ReplyDeleteI know, I told her that. She was then like, "but you can't afford a bed, and you can't just take the one from home. It belongs to mom and dad."
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